So I am putting this all out there. I weight 227 or 225lbs depending on the scale and the day, lol. I don’t think I have ever really put it out there to the world but maybe it is time.
I met with a weight lose surgeon this past week. It was at the recommendation of my primary doctor and my cardiologist (several years ago). I finally followed through though and did it. Let me tell you I was scared to even think about going and when I got there I did not want to go in. At the end I did and although I felt ok.
So let me start by saying I am not taking this lightly. I started at the gym about a month ago and also started seeing a trainer. I go and see him 2x a week and then I go to the gym 3-4 other times during the week. In addition I have given up soda and I have been working on making better choices in regards to my eating. So at the end of the day whether I do the surgery or not I have started to make changes that I need to be successful.
So back to the surgery. I am looking at the gastric sleeve procedure which is the one that my primary and the surgeon have recommended. I am just nervous and scared that I will make the wrong decision or something will happen when I have the surgery. I know I can not live my life this way. I can’t do even some basic things. I am scared that my daughters will end up like me. I am scared that I will screw up and that I won’t make this work.