So this was me…
It is from 7/18/14 my girls (twins) bday.
This is me now (taken this afternoon)…
Can you see the difference!! I sure can. So that is what almost 40lbs will do. Here is the thing though, when I look in the mirror or when I think about what I look like, I see the 1st picture not the second. I still see me at almost 230lbs, I still see the person who was/is so uncomfortable in my own skin. I don’t know if I will ever see this new person. Trust me this new person really is a new person. I run now, yes me I run. I struggle every day with food choices and with getting my butt to the gym, but clearly I am doing something right. So why do I still worry that I will eventually fail?
This is partially where the Mind F*** comes into play. My mind is so f’ed up that no matter what I do or who much I change I still feel like the fat girl in the room, I feel like I will never be able to be different. Now I know that isn’t true. Hell I have proven it to myself every time I run another mile and ever race I complete (4 to date). I want to see this new person, I want to see the better version of me. I don’t think it is a new version or an old version I just think this person I have become is a better person.
Here is to hoping I continue on this amazing journey and keep going in the direction I was meant to go. Moving forward now and always.
January 10, 2015 at 7:33 pm
Uh yeah, I totally see a difference lol! Great great great work! You look amazing! I can imagine it would be difficult to let it sink in that you actually accomplished such an amazing thing but you did! If you don’t believe in yourself now and live this awesome new life than what was it all for? Again, great job. You look fantastic.