Well over the past few months I have accomplished a lot of things. Some of those things include finished my first 1/2 marathon.
The picture on the left was my first 5K in September of 2014 it was not a timed race so I don’t know how I did but I know I didn’t run the entire thing. In November of 2014 I did my first timed 5K and finished in 46:20. The pic on the right is me at about mile 12-13 of my first 1/2 marathon (13.1 miles). I finished it in 2:57:21. My goal was 3 hours and I did it. It hasn’t been an easy road but I take pride in this accomplishment.
I now have 3 more scheduled this year as well as a slew of other races. I have since this race done 2 more 5K’s with my fast time being 35:27 which is a huge improvement from that first “official 5K”. To me though it isn’t about speed, it is about the fact that I am doing this. Almost a year ago it was suggested that I have weight loss surgery. In that year I have lost just over 50lbs and have gained a sense of confidence but at the same time I still struggle. I struggle with the idea that I am somehow not good enough. Not worthy of the accomplishments or of others telling me that I inspire them.
When I set out on this journey my intent was never to inspire anyone but myself. It scares me when people tell me that I am an inspiration as I feel like that carries a burden I am not ready to for. I know that it is really not mine, heck I tell people these things every day so I know the reality of it all. I never thought I would say this but I LOVE RUNNING. Someone please check my temp because that can’t be correct.
I will never be the fastest in my age group, I will never win a race or a medal but I will know that I am making myself proud no matter how fast or slow I go because I know I am finishing. I know that I am setting a positive example for my daughters and at the end of the day that is one of the most important things.