I have been doing a lot of thinking lately regarding running. Ever Saturday I have been getting pretty anxious about doing my long run’s on Sunday. Never before has this happened. I know part of it is not having someone to run with anymore and part of it is I am in a different place than I was last year. So I have decided to take a little break from the distance running.
Now don’t confuse this with taking a break from running because well I still really enjoy running. I am just going to focus more on my shorter distances and maybe getting faster and then focus on training for the half I really want to do in September. I think that is the other piece of this puzzle, I don’t really want to do the half in March. I signed up because I thought it would motivate me to get to training and running again and well all it has done is make me hate it. I don’t wan to hate running I want to love it.
I have also been getting into strength training more and yoga so I am finding somewhat of a balance. When I am training for a half, I feel like everything else gets neglected because I have to run a specific se too mileage and I can’t workout or train the way I really want to. This allows me a little more flexibility for the next few months as I settle into a routine without my normal trainer.
For me it all goes back to fear, the idea of doing something different and failing. The fear of gaining the weight back that I have lost (that will be because of my lack of tracking if anything). So I need to stop being afraid of my own mind and what I think others might think of my choices. I am worth making positive decisions and this will be ok.